Josh and Failure Vs. The World: Day 53
Where to begin? I was sick for a week so I didn’t do this blog – but that’s an excuse. I still could have done the blog while being sick. Do I even have the right to say this is day 53 when I keep skipping days? Yes. Oh, well that was easy.
In the beginner’s mind there are many possibilities. In the expert’s mind, there are few. So I should probably notice how there are 0 possibilities of hope in my mind at the moment.
Am I being hyperbolic? Yes. Well, ok then.
I fail to have faith in myself. But how do I turn this around? By lying to myself and everyone else about how much confidence I have in myself? Yes. Oh, well, ok then.
I think that is not the answer. The answer is to do what I would do if I were not afraid. Well, what is that? A podcast. Are you serious? Yes.
So what I’m saying is that I have a fear of podcasts – now there’s a premise for a horror movie. It takes place in a world where there is only one human being left who does NOT have a podcast, and swarms of podcasters are after him because they so badly need a guest.
That’s what this is all about? A podcast. Yes. A podcast. Now, granted, I have been doing a podcast once a week for a year. But have I been promoting it? No. Moreover, have I been doing everything I want to do on it? Not in the least. So that’s what I have to start doing. I have to commit to this podcast. Focus on the podcast. It’s all about the podcast.
I can’t believe how much I hate myself right now – I don’t want to be another guy with a podcast, and yet, here I am with a podcast.
So instead of writing about how much of a failure I am, I actually want to put failure in action, by doing this podcast. Should it be a daily podcast? That seems a bit much. I think a weekly podcast would be better. Yes, that is my take on that – a weekly podcast- so that’s what I’m going to do. No more writing about failure – it’s time to put failure into action – I am going to do a podcast, precisely because the world does not need another podcast.