Josh And Failure Vs. The World: Day 16
Here’s how I failed today:
In spite of the fact that I have high cholesterol, I ate a rice krispy treat and egg rolls. In other words, in spite of the fact that I had high cholesterol, I ate [insert anything that might bring me a moment of joy in an otherwise bleak and desolate existence].
Oh, right, and I also had two pieces of chocolate. Failure addendum.
I didn’t get up on stage – my goal is to get up every night. I was covering for someone else – but could I have been more insistent? Guinan (from Star Trek: The Next Generation, for those of you who “have social lives” or whatever) says there’s an art to knowing when to be selfish. Should I have been more selfish today? I don’t know the answer to this question.
I don’t even know how to proceed after asking myself this question. Am I failing at really living my life? Am I not doing what I should be doing? On the other hand, how much control do I have over that?
I love when people tell me “Josh, you should get a girlfriend.” Sure thing! I’ll just pop on over to the girlfriend store. I hope they’re open after nine.
But, conversely, is it ultimately THAT EASY to get a girlfriend? Is it hard because it is hard, or because I make it hard? I can’t decide if we have no control over our lives, or if we have TOTAL control over our lives. I’m not sure which is worse – oh, wait, I am sure – both are equally bad. Either I am a helpless victim or an incompetent twit who refuses to take responsibility. If I’m not careful, this will turn into a blog about depression – oh wait…
So maybe the homework is to be 5% more selfish this week?
Better yet – the homework is this: everything is easy. Can everything be easy for the next week?
Great. Love it. At the very least, it will be easy to be 5% more selfish.